I miss you Marlboro Man

I have not smoked in almost 2 years, so why do I still want to? The lovely lady to the left has been smoking since she was 7, and at 103 is still going strong. Obviously an anomoly, but awesome just the same. Since the day I quit, I have not cheated. Not even once. Not even a puff. It's so hard to give up, cigarettes become your friend. They are there for you in good times and bad. What better way to de-stress than smoking a cigarette and collecting your thoughts when things go haywire? I pretty much started smoking Marlboro Lights exclusively just because Christian Slater did in "Pump Up The Volume." Great movie, but off topic. There is nothing like that first cigarette in the morning, or that last one at night. Smokers are always in a rush to complete a task just so they can light up. Now I ask, where is my motivation? I don't really consider myself a "nonsmoker", but more a smoker who doesn't smoke. Why that makes me feel better, I have no idea, but it does. But do I miss going out in a snowstorm when I run out? No. Do I miss rationing them at night like a crackhead so I don't run out before morning? Not in the least. The huge pricetag? Of course not. But that first one in the morning? Or after a great meal? Or while relaxing by the firepit on a warm summer night? I miss that more than you'll ever know.